life decisions

I have been feeling really strange in some parts of life, but good in others. I am still with W, but I have no clue what I will do about my family. That is something that ill deal with later.. I really care about him! like for reals, so I just want to see what happens.. Something will work out for the best, I just am not sure how that will happen just yet. It is nice to actually have a boyfriend thought, I have never really experienced that. I don't like the whole overprotective part however. I guess I am just not used to it. But he's so good. I can't go all into it, because that'd take foreves. But we will just leave it at he's great, and oh so good.

But for some reason since this summer I have been second guessing my decision to be an elementary teacher. Is it really what I want to do? I have no idea. I think I will be awesome at it, but what if I can do something more. It's not like i care about money or anything, but I want to do something that fulfills me. Meet my potential. Don't settle. All that fun stuff. I still have this desire for psychology. I'm thinking I can do something like the educational psychology class i am taking this semester. I feel like this semester will be the test for me to see if teaching will be my thing, or if maybe a counseling/therapy thing will be more for me. I don't feel like I should make any big changes now, because I want to see how it is first. There's so much homework I have to do this semester! I am really getting into the hard stuff. Even though it is really interesting, it will be so time consuming with the reading and all. Well I can't do anything about anything now, so I am just going to be happy with my awesome life for now and the people in it. I hope that me and W work out somehow:) we shall see but for now..

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